I’m slightly concerned that after reading my blog posts and twitter tweets over the past week, people are going to think that I hate New York which is quite contrary to the reality of the situation. I heart New York. I love what this city contains and the energy it brings. Sometimes I hate the subway schedule, life here would certainly be easier if I had a job, and I wish I had a larger network of friends. These are all things that would and will come over time though wherever I am, except for the subway schedule changes (soon I’ll be rich enough to take taxi’s and private cars everywhere). Here is the thing though, I moved to New York to build a kingdom, and when I got here I realized I had forgotten my queen in Ohio. I guess I always had a notion that I had to build my kingdom first and then find a queen who wanted to be a part of it, I now realize that it would have been a much better plan to take the queen I had and we could have built our kingdom together. In an ideal world, I go back to Ohio, throw myself at the mercy of the court, get my queen back, and we build the kingdom together this time. In the real world there will be a much different scenario. People don’t care about realizations and epiphanies. People care about you being there for them, down to fight for them, never abandoning them; and everything I’ve done for the past six months has been to the contrary of that (which is a sure fire way to make someone fall out of love with you).
So, even though New York is the place where I realized a monumental error in my ways, I’m so happy for the time that I got to spend here. While I was here I met some really awesome people, rediscovered my love of hip hop, I recorded a new hip hop album, and through the process of making this album I found my voice. Meaning I found the ability within myself to really talk about things that are affecting me. Which is something that I’ve always struggled to do. I know I’ve been going a little overboard with it on the blog lately, I’m going to try and tame it down a bit. I write my rap verses so conversationally, sometimes I forget that a rap verse and a blog post are two different things; and where it’s perfectly acceptable to have some stream of consciousness self expression in a song, doing so in a blog can leave people with the wrong impression about things going on in my life. I’m pretty excited to start sharing the music and myself with you all. Goodbye, goodnight, and I heart New York.
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